Life is always interesting. It makes you genius and
sometimes idiot at a time. You feel happy when you are called genius and get disappointed
when called idiot. How can I be different? But this time, I was forced to
question myself when I was called an idiot for the reason I will never give
more preference to.
Morning of Tuesday, 6 September was just wow! What a
beautiful morning. When I opened my eyes, I saw two birds above the garden
flying around and flying again. I witnessed this beautiful scenario most of the
times as I am one of those lucky ones to have garden outside my window. I just
wanted to lie on my bed and enjoy the morning. But it clicked that I had my
classes. 'Gosh! Already 7:30, girl wake up and get ready'. I rushed towards
washroom to get fresh, although I was in hurry I didn't forget to look at
mirror and give a smile. I usually do that to give a good start to my every
morning.
I became fresh, offered my prayers and done with my tea.
Now, dress, thank god it was ironed last night. White kameez and light green
shalwar with dark green dupatta, was not bad as I was comfortable with it. I
was never dress conscious back in my country but this is one of those
development on me after coming here in Pakistan. Properly ironed and well-dressed was the
major change I could observe. But still when I dress, I always look for my
comfort not for others and I still believe that dress should please me first.
As always, I was comfort with the shalwar kameez that I was wearing and proudly
I received good compliments for the dress.
Coincidentally, it was the Defense Day in Pakistan, and I
was unknown. When I reached department, every single person I met (whom I know)
started chanting, "Pakistan Jindabad!" I was like Ok! Fine, thank you. Besides,
everything was going normal as usual. Then suddenly we were informed that we
will have two free lectures, and what else, this was the best thing to hear as
we get enough time to chit chat and sometimes out for breakfast as well. We planned to go somewhere for breakfast. As I
don't know much restaurants around this city, my friends were busy discussing
and I started talking with one of my male colleagues. At the beginning of our
conversation, I received common compliment of that day, "Oh! White Kameez
and green Shalwar, Pakistan Jindabad!"
I asked, "Why
is everyone saying Pakistan Jindabad?"
He said, "Today is Defense Day. And also you have
worn white Kameez and green Shalwar, the dress that we specially wear in
Independence Day, which is 14th August."
I said, "Ok! Happy Defense day! Sorry! I was unknown
to this fact."
He said, "But do you know that your dupatta is not
matching with your Shalwar? You should have worn light green dupatta. What kind
of dress is this that you are wearing? Complete mismatch."
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And he started giving his own suggestions that was
irritating me. It was not the first time he commented on my dress, good or bad,
he always notices what I wear and passes comments which I never ask for. I was
on my head, why should someone have problem with what kind of dress I wear. My
anger was repressed since long, and that day I just couldn’t stop myself.
I was a bit loud and many of my colleagues were shocked
to see me in anger. However, another friend consoled me and suggested me to
ignore those kinds of persons. I was calmed down. After sometime, I felt bad
that I shouted at him. I was feeling bad for being so loud and thinking that I
could have
told him separate, but no I told him many times it was important; but
he felt bad, maybe he felt insulted, but you felt insulted many times when he
commented on your dress, hairstyle… Ah! These feelings, guilt were just killing
me that suddenly I received a message, "Today you did really unethical. I
will never talk to such an idiot girl." I replied "Thanks" and
was blocked after that.
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